new year's eve
2:11:00 PM
dear self, at the brink of 2016, a year younger and a whole lot more innocent
i could tell you a lot of things
i could tell you not to want to try and fix people
you are not God
i could tell you not to set up people as your rescue
they are not God
i could tell you to not be so afraid of change
to think before jumping at a chance of work
to not be so hard on yourself
to not let only a few words break your heart
to give people the benefit of the doubt
and a whole load of other things.
but if i told you that
i wouldn’t be who i am here right now
to tell you those things
and that would be a paradox
so instead
i will simply tell you
live.
dear self, at the brink of 2016, a year older and a whole lot more grown
change came
you learned to relish it
the losses you feared came
and you regained them in the most beautiful ways
you chose
the only choice that matters
you threw that ridiculous hat and tassel in the air
saw just how many people loved you
(enough to grow your bank account)
you learned to make other choices
choices to take care of your soul
(please don’t ever look at that time with resentment ever again)
you worked through your first college semester
have a third of a new novel under your belt
you read so much
found a deluge of the best music your heart could ever need
you experienced incredible pain and sadness
and incredible joy and contentment
you learned to live, not just survive
to forgive
to trust
to come close to the One who died to rescue you
to love like Him
enduring, selfless
to heal
to hope.
so, beautiful, stronger soul
don’t you ever look at this year
and see the pain
because it is beautiful now
and you grew
and grew
and will keep growing
you needed this all along.
so tonight
the clock will turn
a new year
take those things you learned
never forget them
and when you do
you will be carried.
live it with thanks
love even when it’s hard
especially when it’s hard
live it fearless
in freedom
finish that novel and don’t be afraid to take out the old one again
all your words need to be written
you are living the impossible
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